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A Gift of the Heart – Years of Development

My First Home – Renovated years later with a few trees removed.

So often folks write books and then publish them with the hopes of making a lot of sales, especially the non-fiction writers with stories of high strangeness. I’ve written over a dozen books and, yes, some fall into the hight strangeness category. I’ve attempted to market them as well.

With others experiencing high strangeness and looking for corroboration and more, I feel it is more important to share and, in some way, pay it forward and offer reflections that might be similar and provide insights into life as we know it and the innate ability we have of embracing a new living awareness. I’ve learned that there is a natural progression toward harmony among people and planet, too.

So below you will find a few books that took over a decade to write. It’s a hero’s journey of sorts, a series that is multidimensional in itself, complete with explorations to match. Trials and tribulations abound as this one seeks to find soulace in life and love. The best things in life are shared, in this case nearly 1,000 pages of my best writing across the three. I enjoyed writing them, labored over them and finally published them.

All of the books below are in PDF format, so any reader will do. If you enjoy the book(s), head over to Amazon and write up a review, please. Thanks in advance.

From readers:

This book is a fun ride through metaphysical-land for those who are new to it. Entertaining, enthralling, you can’t stop reading it once you get started. If ever you have seen or heard things no one else does and you think you are crazy, think “spiritual” happening instead. For too long we have ignored the inner voices that speak to us and Zen’s journey may speak to you as well.

Meria Heller –

2010 International Association for Near Death Studies annual conference

You won’t again see yourself or the world in the same way

It isn’t often you get to review a book by someone you already know, respect – and this respect is based on the results that Zen delivers in the real, concrete world where most of us live. Zen is a perfect combination of can-do problem solver and off-your-radar philosopher in one amazing human being.

His book speaks of this world and other worlds with data, experience, insights, and questions, many of which the reader is challenged to answer – or at least ponder for extended periods.

Zen does not dispense recipes and firm answers to life’s questions. Instead, he invites you to use all six senses and to think. I have not been lucky enough to attend one of his workshops or retreats, yet I am dead sure I would leave with fewer limits to the possibilities in my life.
Zen will take you there. Enjoy.
5.0 out of 5 stars May 20, 2013 By John P. DERMODY Amazon Verified Purchase

This is an autobiographical story of a spiritual adventurer who is led on a journey of intense life-altering experiences that serve to further the advancement of what appears to be an already advanced soul. Although sometimes the tale seems a little disjointed and one might wonder where this is going, in the end it becomes clear that Bruce/Zendor has been directly and indirectly influenced by a mind/soul connection that is unflagging in its ability to magnetize life lessons that, while certainly not the most comfortable, have brought him a long way down the path toward unification with Source.  For myself, I could only wish that such mystical realms were more apparent in my life, but reading about it in another is a good second. Sallyelena Lewis, Artist, Arizona

Just click on the images to download the books:

Zendor the Barbarian 1 (130 downloads) 372 pages (paperback)



Zendor the Barbarian - Part Deux (410 downloads) 288 pages (paperback)




Zendor the Barbarian - Part Trois (119 downloads) 310 pages (paperback)






Cosmic Conundrum - Who Am I, Really? (97 downloads) 175 pages (paperback)

Author Bruce ‘Zen’ Benefiel offers a healthy dose of spiritual wisdom for an “out-of-this-world” reader experience. Some dynamics which make this book a helpful guide are the author’s out-of-body experiences, his education and unique intelligence, combined with (but not limited to) an aptitude for research, diverse content synthesis and organization, complete with workbook opportunities for reflection on the provided material.

Zen embraces psychological, scientific, intuitive and mystical explanations, offering practical exercises for meditation, releasing emotional blockages, mentorship, deepening the experience of “flow,” and more. Where relevant, Zen gives simple and effective definitions of spiritual terms for comprehension, and methodical processes for readers to achieve similar results with the suggested exercises. The author’s knowledge of mental-emotional transformational methodologies makes for well-explored and deeply penetrating lessons on the self-help topics.

Woven by the common thread of his mystical experiences, Zen continually provides insightful logic regarding the ultimately inevitable connections among science and spirituality, connecting within, and galactic citizenry. Meaningful personal stories from the author’s physical life experience are steeped in wisdom. That said; the author’s emotional vulnerability is a great asset to humanizing the mystical experiences he lives out.

Zen’s authentic sharing creates a good foundation for us (the readers) to contemplate and realize the unique reality to which we have embraced and have been exposed. The book reveals compelling evidence that we can each go beyond our normal waking consciousness to connect in higher and finer ways. The material provided ties into an overall cosmic picture, complex enough to stretch our ideas of reality and cosmic responsibility while, at the same time, practical enough to not lose accessibility in the lessons offered.

Ethereal experiences are occasionally scoffed at due to popular misconceptions of an ethereal person’s resulting incongruence with normal reality (aka, “airy-fairy”). However, sound reasoning and pragmatic advice ensure that readers like us can learn from the offerings even if we aren’t able to relate the material in its entirety. For example, Zen offers practical guidance on the most basic and often overlooked necessity of balancing and resolving our emotions. Since such healthy (and practical) behaviors aren’t yet common sense for mankind, we could clearly argue that not only is a person’s reality highly relative to the beholder, but reality is also highly relative to how many people are beholding it. In other words, common sense is relative to what a group considers common. Even then, a high commonality doesn’t necessarily indicate truth.


If you get some value from these works and would like to make a contribution, please feel free to do so. It will help to continue the work. May we all experience harmony among people and planet in our lifetimes.